So frustrating being a diabetic and I can't believe that there is no support group available in Penticton. I would love to start one however I am spreading myself pretty thin at the moment and I don't think I can add another project and remain somewhat sane!
Here is the latest fun filled event as seen from my eyes! Every time I go to the Dr's office I leave feeling frustrated and depressed for at least a day. This is due to the fact that I am doing everything properly so that I can be as healthy as possible for as long as possible. The complications of diabetes is what scares me such as dialysis, blindness, disabilities due to a stroke etc. Dying does not scare me nearly as much as losing my independence or leaving my loved ones while they still need me. So I exercise on my treadmill daily and walk as often as I can and make proper food choices as often as I can. So off I go to the diabetic clinic in mid June to see the nurse. Very positive visit and I leave feeling pretty good as my hard work has been acknowledged and a difference in my health can be seen. Now I go to my Dr last week and he wants to add more medication even though my numbers are under 10 most of the time. Keep in mind there are many, many factors that can have an impact on a diabetics numbers such as stress, change in routine, traveling etc. I would also like to add that in the morning after I get off my treadmill my numbers have been as low as 4.5.
So I am not crazy about a new medication being added to my body and part of this is because I have an issue with the greedy drug companies profiting off of my and anyone else's misfortune! But I suck it up and think that this is how I am going to have to deal with this so stop being such a baby. Now I have a fatal allergy to sulfa antibiotics. My first reaction was so sever that I was told if I took it again I would die. My Dr is aware of this as is the pharmacy where I get my medication from. On my way home I start to read the pamphlet of info that comes with your drugs and low and behold it lists this drug as a "SULFONYLUREA" hhmmmmmmm I know my Dr and the pharmacy are aware of my allergy and I know that the computer red flags these things BUT I also know that mistakes can be made and that nobody will advocate for you like you will for yourself. so now I have to go back to the Drs office to discuss it. I am guessing that if it was harmless they would have just said " No go for it you'll be fine." and since they didn't I may be dead right now if I had just taken it with out checking. So people always double check things even if you think you are a FREAK if the voice in your head says stop that isn't right please listen to it!!!
Anyways I digress cause that wasn't really my point. I called my sister yesterday and she was asking how the whole diabetes thing was going. She is particularly interested as she had gestational diabetes during both her pregnancies. She was telling me how after her Dr's appointments she would feel defeated and depressed and frustrated if she didn't hit her numbers every single time. The Dr would send her to the nutritionist and it would make her feel like she wasn't successful in her sugar management. During the 2nd pregnancy she took everything the Dr said with a grain of salt and started to make her own decisions. If she didn't agree with the Dr she wouldn't take his advice. One of her co-workers has type 1 diabetes and has been having these experiences with Drs most of his life. So a light bulb goes on in my head......Hey I am NOT the only one having this experience. We all know that misery loves company so of course this makes me feel so much better! Now if we had a support group here I would know that and it would make those rough patches a little easier to cope with.
In the end we Berezowskis are pretty tough little cookies so I think I will look into starting a support group but it will have to wait until I have more time. In the meantime I am open to suggestions so if anyone has an idea please let me know :) Just sayin' ;P
